Back in May, I thought that Christmas was going to be the last big hurrah before our sweet little one was born. I was due January 22nd, 2012, and since I always get induced early, I was planning to have that tree down on January 1st so that we could have a week or so to get the house back to normal and all set up for Baby. I was so looking forward to this Holiday season and how especially exciting it would be.
Setting up the tree a few weeks ago was so bittersweet. I thought I'd be planning to take it down with my belly about to pop, struggling to reach things and not fall into the tree because I'd be so big. But, God had other plans for us and our little Amara. She (he?) gets to celebrate this Christmas (and all the ones hereafter) in Heaven. How awesome is that for her? We think that hearing a choir of hundreds sing Handel's Messiah in a great big cathedral is awesome, but imagine how it pales in comparison to what Amara is hearing the angels sing. We have our little nativity sets that we put out at this time of year, but our sweet little one gets to look on the actual face of Jesus this year. It's so hard to be without her, but it is so comforting knowing that my child is enjoying blessings that I can only dream of for now. Christmas won't be quite as exciting for us in so many ways as we had hoped, but it's infinitely more exciting for Amara. We miss our baby and wish we were only 6 weeks from getting to meet her, but we know she is experiencing something so much better than what her big sisters, little brother, or dad and I will be experiencing for many years (Lord willing).
And, speaking of her little brother, we are so infinitely thankful that though we're still 4 months out from meeting our newest little one, we have him. God has added to our numbers. He is in our family, and we are so thankful for this and the prospect of meeting him soon. He is a living proof of the promises and the blessings of God that can sometimes be spoken of glibly during this holiday season. As Andrew said tonight, this has probably been the hardest year of our lives together, but also the most blessed. Two new little ones have joined our ranks, and we have strong hopes that we will be meeting one of them soon (and the promise of meeting the other when we get to Heaven). God has been kind, and we are eternally grateful for these kicks that I am feeling now.
Light and life to all He brings
Merry Christmas, little Amara!
Setting up the tree a few weeks ago was so bittersweet. I thought I'd be planning to take it down with my belly about to pop, struggling to reach things and not fall into the tree because I'd be so big. But, God had other plans for us and our little Amara. She (he?) gets to celebrate this Christmas (and all the ones hereafter) in Heaven. How awesome is that for her? We think that hearing a choir of hundreds sing Handel's Messiah in a great big cathedral is awesome, but imagine how it pales in comparison to what Amara is hearing the angels sing. We have our little nativity sets that we put out at this time of year, but our sweet little one gets to look on the actual face of Jesus this year. It's so hard to be without her, but it is so comforting knowing that my child is enjoying blessings that I can only dream of for now. Christmas won't be quite as exciting for us in so many ways as we had hoped, but it's infinitely more exciting for Amara. We miss our baby and wish we were only 6 weeks from getting to meet her, but we know she is experiencing something so much better than what her big sisters, little brother, or dad and I will be experiencing for many years (Lord willing).
And, speaking of her little brother, we are so infinitely thankful that though we're still 4 months out from meeting our newest little one, we have him. God has added to our numbers. He is in our family, and we are so thankful for this and the prospect of meeting him soon. He is a living proof of the promises and the blessings of God that can sometimes be spoken of glibly during this holiday season. As Andrew said tonight, this has probably been the hardest year of our lives together, but also the most blessed. Two new little ones have joined our ranks, and we have strong hopes that we will be meeting one of them soon (and the promise of meeting the other when we get to Heaven). God has been kind, and we are eternally grateful for these kicks that I am feeling now.
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Crying the most bittersweet, yet also the happiest, tears right now.
Beautifully worded, my friend. Just perfect.
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